87rose

 Alone. We are all alone if you really think about it. We all have our own feelings, imaginations, thoughts and perspective on everything that exists. If we see it from a human's point of view, but to see it from a soul's point of view, were not alone at all, ever.  It's impossible for someone to experience what I actually experience in life. I can share my experience with others, but they would have their own perspective on the thing being described. No one could experience the pleasures and sorrows of my life unless they were me. Yes, we are seemingly alone in this life but only if we choose to be.  I find it fascinating that we are these self-working machines, we generate our own power to move, think, create, communicate and even reproduce. Our bodies do things without our knowledge or awareness. We have sensors over our entire body that sends us signals when something touches it or when something isn't right. It warns itself that something is wrong. Some things don...

 We were taught, as kids, to pray for things the we want to see, have or what we want to turn out. So many prayers seem as though they go unanswered but God will only grant you what you see yourself worthy of. Imagination is a powerful thing. Everything we see that was built by man started in a mind first, a dream, or a desire.  God is our father. If I wanted to give my child something they longed for and they turned their head in shame as though they were not worthy of it, it would break my heart. How would I know they really needed it if they didn’t ask for it or seen themselves worthy of having it? Turn to your father, ask for forgiveness, not just because you have done wrong but ask for forgiveness that you feel the shame inside, the regret, the missed opportunities that you gave up. Ask for forgiveness that you never had faith that God was leading you all long and you ignored the blessings because someone told you that you weren’t worthy. Know your worth and give thanks t...

 UGH...the daily question, What's for dinner? I can't speak for everyone, but that is serious question. When I was a kid, we had real dinners. Dinners back then (80s & 90s) had a dining table, the main course, which consisted of some type of meat; soup, spaghetti, beans, casseroles, roast, ham, chicken, porkchops, meatloaf, steak or fish. Mom always made 3-4 side dishes: vegetables, mashed potatoes, greens or green beans, salad, macaroni or potato salad, fruit and some sort of dessert, cake, pudding or pie. we didn't have bags of chips, quick fix single serve meals, snack cakes or cases of pop... we didn't complain because we were being fed healthy meals. My mom fixed breakfast and dinner the same way, a variety of food. lunch was mostly a sandwich or something small, not a big meal. The thing that gets me thinking, she was a stay home mother yes, but she also took care of the gardens, canned our vegetables and tomatoes, milked the cow, made butter, took care of the...

 It's been almost 6 years since I last wrote about anything.  So much has happened since then.  I love to write, not saying I'm a novelist, (one of my unrealistic goals), but to me, it's the same has having a conversation. I love to talk... about life, dreams, the unknown, how life works and why things happen or exist.  I really enjoy figuring out complex behaviors or solutions to ailments.  Long story short...I think I just enjoy learning and understanding.  Somewhere in the past, I left myself behind.  Who am I now? where did the old me go? why did I change? I would describe my inner self as caring, funny, creative, artist, crafty, fun, talkative, loved to dance, write, talk to anyone kind of woman.  (... that word alone makes me feel old...but 'girl' is too young and "lady" is too proper to describe me lol...Ugg) anyway... I was that person, not so much anymore. I tend to shy away from being outgoing to more reserved or "shadowed" is a better ...

 I'm back...again...lol. This time...well I say it now when I mean it...  but I'm going to try to stick to writing more often. I have good plans, but my excuses are way better. That's a lie, don't believe it. I just get distracted and can't seem to organize anything or stick to any type of routine, unless its morning, afternoon, and evening coffee making...that I do stick to. The phrase does say "If they wanted to, they would" my coffee must be pretty important. What to write about today?  I think I have an addiction. You Tube! 😆 Oh yes, it's an addiction. Tot just for videos but the information it provides. Endless!! You tube is like a library with endless knowledge that is growing every second. UHH. The stuff I'll never know saddens me a little. Thinking back to when I first discovered YouTube, I would watch funny videos, they would cheer me up when I needed a good laugh. Now for laughs I just read back through my old blog posts...so funny. Ther...

     Its very clear these days that drugs have taken over the majority of our middle age and younger generation.  who is really the blame? Parents, peers, lack of discipline, lack of work, doctors, government?, Or is it just so easy to communicate these days without someone eaves dropping.(texting, internet.) Lets talk about the doctors. Most of us when we are sick, we go to the doctor and put our lives in their hands and not question their judgment. So many people abuse prescriptions, maybe it wasn't the patient's intentions at first, maybe it started when they went to a doctor for help; hurt back or broken bone, stressed out. What a doctor should say to the patient is, "lets try to fix you" but instead he says, "here take these pills and your symptoms will go away." But of course the problem doesn't go away only the symptoms, and then you are left with more problems on top of the one you had.       For example, you notice you have a l...