87rose

I read something the other day and it asks, "What goes up and never comes down?....Your age!!" It was in a joke book....but it is really depressing, by time you realize that your getting old, its too late to do some of the things you've never done. Me, for instance; my first car date, high school football games, concerts with your friends, meeting guys at the fair, etc . These are the little things i never had a chance to do as a teen, because i had a child of my own at 16. I try to tell my 14 year old the downside of having a baby at such a young age, it makes you an adult way before your time, and you just don't realize how much love and devotion it takes to raise a child, and its a shame i never realized that until my second child 10 years later. You miss out on so much as they're growing up, and don't even know it until its too late, by then they're already grown. i'm 30, he's already 14...in 2 years he will be half my age...and driving!... uhh...

I heard this song yesterday and just found out who sings it....uhhh....this song is awesome!!! I get through to loved ones through music...I don't only listen to the music, i listen to the words..(if i don't like what it says....i don't like the song).....but anyway this song is called, "Do I?" by Luke Bryan. My BF was asking me just the other night, how we could get back the spark. I told him i was comfortable with him...after I'm comfortable there is no spark...i know its wrong, but i think I'm just too embarrassed to make any first moves or be spontaneous , because he really knows who i am now. I'm not wild or crazy like he thought i was in the beginning...well, i was wild but i settled down, isn't that what your supposed to do when it becomes love? otherwise it would be lust, right? This song just reminded me of what he is thinking about me. Its depressing but i just can't bring myself to change. i know its me, because i hate to say it, ...