i had left a comment that got me thinking about a few things....I'm not religious, i drink, smoke, cuss, and sleep with a man that I'm not married to, i even have 2 kids with different fathers, but does that make me a sinner? I don't think so. Some people would though....but why? I don't put people down, i don't make fun of anyone, i don't judge anyone, i see the good in everyone until they prove me wrong. I have never killed, i don't tell "big" lies, and i don't try to be someone that I'm not. i just believe in what is real, me. I try to teach my kids to be good to people, do good deeds and good things will happen. It seems like everyone is waiting on heaven, why? live life on earth first, we can make life feel like heaven if we try, but no, people don't believe anymore, they want things handed to them, they want to open a bible and read a prayer and boom! their in there. I'm sorry i don't think that is the way it works. people know right from wrong at the age of 3.
This religious woman comes to my house sometimes, she gives me little pamphlets about Jesus and asks me what i think about everything. well, i don't think she likes what i think but i do think shes interested in what i believe because she comes back all the time. I tell her its hard to believe in something that i cannot see or touch..for example; i could tell you that i have a friend that stands beside me all the time and talks to me...would you believe that? no, you can't see it. but if i tell you look in my eyes and and I'll tell you about my painful past, you could hold my hand and cry with me couldn't you? yes, because it is real..you can see my pain and you can feel what i feel. i told her that i don't have to go to church to pray, i don't have to read the bible to know real pain, or what the future holds...because i have lived it, and i am the only one that can change my future. i learned from my mistakes, and i don't have to have anyone to tell me what i am doing wrong in life. do you know who you are? i know who i am, i have lived with myself for ..ummmm 30 years now.
Yes i could go to church and be really happy...you know why? because I'm surrounded by happy people that all want the same thing...to be happy and promised an afterlife that lives forever happy.
i have always said that you can find better friends at a bar rather than a church.....most of the time. People at the bar are honest, they might be sinners or whatever but they don't hide it.
that woman asked me if i had read the bible....i told her not the whole thing, but i had went to church as a child (hated it...but loved the singing part) and was taught the basics...whatever that is......she tries to make me feel guilty for not knowing the whole bible. i told her i knew some one that could recite the bible with out opening it (so to speak). This person also can snort coke, hit a crack pipe, crush a few pills on Saturday, go to church on Sunday and preach with the best of them. I bet the church people would really look up to him too....wouldn't they? But i guess you have to go to the bar to find out what they are really like huh?
I don't try to change what people believe in because at least they believe in something, ya know?
That's why i try to tell people to believe in themselves first because we are real...we are a miracle. we are something that starts from nothing and turns into a machine that is capable of just about anything. Our brains are made to remember faces, names, numbers, even smells for 100 years and can retrieve it in a split second ....that's amazing! but do i believe that one mighty someone designed each and every little thing and human......that's a hard one to believe.
I'm not trying to change any ones beliefs, but i do believe there is a higher power that no one knows about, and its inside of each and every one of us.....its our brain, we can make ourselves sick, (heartache, depression, sadness), we can make ourselves happy,(love, career, children) we do it to ourselves....so why not believe in ourselves first? what could it hurt?
I do not mean to offend anyone!!!! this is just my outlook on my own life.
We were taught, as kids, to pray for things the we want to see, have or what we want to turn out. So many prayers seem as though they go unanswered but God will only grant you what you see yourself worthy of. Imagination is a powerful thing. Everything we see that was built by man started in a mind first, a dream, or a desire. God is our father. If I wanted to give my child something they longed for and they turned their head in shame as though they were not worthy of it, it would break my heart. How would I know they really needed it if they didn’t ask for it or seen themselves worthy of having it? Turn to your father, ask for forgiveness, not just because you have done wrong but ask for forgiveness that you feel the shame inside, the regret, the missed opportunities that you gave up. Ask for forgiveness that you never had faith that God was leading you all long and you ignored the blessings because someone told you that you weren’t worthy. Know your worth and give thanks t...
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